I Need You But Sometimes You’re the Worst Is your purpose to exist for me?  When do you think you can stop? I thought I was here to help Is it not obvious enough? I wouldn’t have an answer If you ever asked me Because even in my dreams I take a backseat There are … Continue reading Creativity & Mental Health

No One Told You, But Your Friends Don’t REALLY Want You To Get Better You need help and your friends need help. Your friends love toxic relationships too. They need to fix people like some of us do. What happens when the person you help fix is "fixed"? What happens to that relationship then? Working … Continue reading Friends And Other Drugs

I’m Angry, She’s Angry, No One Understands What’s Going On Weight gain. Weight gain in your face and neck. Irritability. Feeling "muted" overall. Loss of conversational filters. You can read all the pill bottles you want, experiencing the symptoms makes you seriously reconsider just leaning into your mental illness to avoid gaining weight and becoming … Continue reading Prescription Drugs Part II

" I’m THE BEST But-Wait What’s Going On?" My friend is going to see this and either laugh or shake her damn head. I sent this gif a lot my first week back to the real world. I was floating down streets due to my new Lexapro superpower. Nothing could keep me down! I was … Continue reading Prescription Drugs Part I

“The Acutes Have Outside Time, But Our Snacks are Good” I don't think I'd ever eaten so much in my life. We had breakfast, then snacks, then a lunch, then more snacks, then dinner, then snacks. Was I in some experimental facility that pumps humans full of food and leaves them bored out of their … Continue reading Behavioral Health Facility

I just look at myself and think "meh" All I can hear is a quiet cycle of short squeaks as I'm rolling through the hospital. It's about 3AM and I'm hyper-aware of my BMI while watching 3 adults wheel me out the back door to the ambulance. I've been waiting in the observation area of … Continue reading June 4, 2019: Diagnosed