"I'll be there for youuuuuuuu" "It's hard to figure out what's being caused by my medication, versus a human reaction to someone just being kinda shitty" I absentmindedly drove around my neighborhood and calmly talked out loud to my car speakers while my mom listened on the other end. I had just come back to … Continue reading Friends – The One Where You Feel Left Out

“Without ash to rise from, the phoenix would just be a bird getting up.” - Schmidt from the hit comedy New Girl Multiple personality disorder is no longer the acceptable term for it, now it's called "Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID)." I remember that by thinking, "oh no, Kevin from the movie Split D.I.D. some crazy shit with … Continue reading Master of Disguises

But not a-loner “Someone should look at you the way they look at the food coming to the table.” So we’re all warped from love in general due to ancient gender roles and expectations from the silver screen, right? We’re getting better at spotting toxicity and we’re all so much more open and forward about … Continue reading On Being Alone

If I met myself I would probably be bored too “I just don’t feel the spark. You didn’t do anything wrong, I find you attractive and fun, but I just didn’t feel anything more serious.” I laid in bed for a few minutes after this conversation. Truth be told, I didn’t feel any emotions from … Continue reading Nice People Are…Nice

Turning the spotlight away from the dull shadows of Winter You know it took me two full years before I finally (and secretly) watched the movie "The Dark Knight?" During those two years EVERYONE -for lack of a better phrase- couldn't shut the f&%$ up about the damn movie. It wasn't until the weight of … Continue reading ‘Tis the Season to Be Merry and Bright: An Oversight?

A multi-layered ice cream sundae of emotions I used to be obsessed with the show Lost when it came out. My parents and I RELIGIOUSLY watched the show. We even got all the puzzles and put them together so we could try to decipher the glow-in-the-dark map on the backs of them. We would push … Continue reading Personal Emotional Work

I Can Barely Carry My Own Bullshit Let Alone Yours Too No one around you is obligated to be patient, be kind, be supportive. Be unconditionally understanding or deal with toxic behaviors in the name of love. Yes, we should all strive to be kinder to one another and be open to understanding everyone's mental … Continue reading Dating & Mental Health

Becoming More Like The Old Man Who Watches His Lawn I dunno if you have ever seen a neighbor like this, but his (yes HIS) life is typically decorated like this: His house is average looking. But that's not the characteristic you're looking at, no, you're distracted by the (seemingly) thousands of tiny flags standing … Continue reading Boundaries

Irish Goodbyes, “Hey What’s That Over There?” and Other Fun Tricks I do this fun thing now where when I feel overwhelmed, exhausted or just plain "done," I leave. Yeah, I literally get up and leave. There's a ridge between my emotions and thoughts. Sometimes there's one between me and social cues. When I feel … Continue reading Leaving The Party

I Love You All, Just Not Really Myself I LOVE being around others. I love other people. I genuinely believe that if we gave more shits about each other, the world would be so much easier to navigate. It's hard to explain that I give lots of shits about other people but forget to save … Continue reading Floating in the Community